This is your Life and It's ending one minute at a time" Now is the time to stand up and fight back!

THE CHOICE I MADE

It was a choice I made I can't take it back even if i tried
It was a path I chose
I can't turn around even if i tried
Did i go into it blindly maybe so
Did I know it would have this big of an impact, No
I've done things I wish I hadn't
I've done things I'll never forget
I've made alot of people happy
I've made family proud to call me son
I have friends that feel lost
I have a human being that would give her life for me
can't go back to a time of then
must not think of what ifs and what could of been
i must only realize where I am
I will drive on and continue with what I've chosen
I do not regret for this is what I wanted
I will not forget these are the dreams I've made
As I continue in this life and it's wonderful experiences
I must always remember
This was a choice I made
I can't take it back even if i tried
It was a path I chose
I can't turn around even if I tried.

MIDDLE OF THE END

I'm caught up in my own mess Laughing and crying
drowning myself in my very own sea
Burying my mind deep inside this hole
So I'll just sit here and pass the time
Bring you into my world
Find the comfort in talking about life
I'm left here far from them
connected only by these typed words
trying to save, trying to mend those wounds
forgetting about myself if only to help them
I'll build you up and give you hope
I'll come close to the edge and provide you with no rope
You'll be just as I am right now
singing those lipstick lullabies
it only gets worse and always gets better
so here I am again in the middle of the end
Yes I will always be your friend
Once more I'll say goodbye
all these things I've come to hate
I've grown completly addicted
to all the friends I've accumulated
what if we never cross paths again
will I only be a memory that will slowly fade
only to appear from the shawdows in the shade
some where between misery and missouri
before I can leave I'll face trial by jury
Tommorow at this time I'll be gone
Tommorrow I'll be done with the army
This all will only be a distant memory

IT'S SINKING IN

I’m in a country called Iraq Not to visit, or vacation I am living here in Iraq
Not just for a summer or a month
I’m here for a year in Iraq
My birthday will be spent here
My Anniversary will be celebrated here
Halloween, Thanksgiving,
Christmas and New Years
All will be celebrated in Iraq
A whole year I won’t ever get back
I’m not going to say it was wasted
There is something always to be done
There is something always learned
On the radio there are reports of killing
In the sky sound the loud thunders of helicopters
Outside the office the sun awaits to melt you
Seven days a week this place rapes me of
Always trying to get more from me
Helpless to those back home is what I feel
Everyday is a routine to this shit
Life in this army will tear you apart
Your mind, body and soul
No one back home will ever truly understand
It’s okay though they don’t need to
It’s my reality and it’s sinking in

DEAR FRIEND

Once again I stand be side my friend we'd be together till the very end. It was the best of times, it was the worst of times,
always expressing my every thought in these ryhmes.
Dear friend do you know your the only one I ever did trust,
tell me all will not be lost in the dust.
Dear friend you always did look out for me,
even when no one else could see.
helping each other with this life,
telling each other to put down the knife.
We are the perfect example of a true friend,
We will always be till the very end.
Dear friend tell me everything will be okay,
Dear friend tell me you'll be back one day
Dear friend do you know you might not be back
please GOD I pray you don't end up in a black sack
Dear friend it's true we've been trained to kill
we always did try to climb the highest hill
Dear friend can you tell GOD to be by your side
and promise me unkle sam doesn't tell me you died
Dear friend was it coincedence that i'm here
or was it fate taking away all my fear
losing my brother to this war I fear most
so here's to GOD and may GOD be with you is my toast
I know you won't die
so this isn't my goodbye
and once again I'll stand be side my friend
following right be side you to the very end